UnaLuna - I'm sorry you lack some things that are nice to have, like a vehicle to easily get where you are going. Mine is over 18 years old and runs fine. Believe me, I do not take that for granted. Everytime I pass someone waiting in the broiling sun for a bus, or walking down the street carrying grocery bags, it almost takes my breath away, as I think that I don't have to do what they're doing. There were times in my life when I did. It's not so bad when you are young. It seems like every time I go out to run errands, I see people who are not young and are not even well, struggling to get through their day. I never feel entitled to have what I have. I just feel lucky.

When I was in the psych hospital back in June, one of my fellow patients was without a home to return to. I think she'ld been with a guy she couldn't go back to. They discharged her to the street. I felt like some agency should have been found to give her a voucher to a "welfare motel." I'ld known people to get those vouchers who were not more deserving than she was. She said she'ld never been on the street before. She was a young woman. I thought of what could happen to her. Life seems to remind me often of how really hard a lot of people have it. Maybe I'm just prone to notice that others struggle. I live in a city. I don't have to look far.

You are correct that we each must discover our purpose. Before my friend died I used to tell myself that anyone willing to be useful can always find something to do. The world is not going to run out of need anytime soon.

I hope you enjoy your next nap. Why not? No reason you shouldn't . . . unless it gets in the way of what you'ld like to have going on in your life. It sounds like you are at peace with how you are allocating your time. That's a good thing.