This doesn’t sound good. Sorry, I’ve imagined mania to be like sleepless nights working on a big project or going in a health food , reading and writing kick. I thought the negative part was the depression/emotional stuff. Sorry if I am insensitive bc I do understand how it feels to be overly emotional even when you feel like you have complete control. I still do believe there could be an apology necessary but it doesn’t pay to give one unless you mean the thoughts behind the words. Like, the apology is for you not the other person.