Was overcome by anxiety last night. I took 25mg seroquel and couldn’t sleep because I felt like I couldn’t breathe. I took another 25mg and fell asleep but thought I would be immobile today because of it, but nope up at 9:30 consumed by anxiety again. We just got home from a nice walk in a park. I thought it would be a good idea and make me feel better. It did for awhile but now I’m feeling anxious again. I believe I have a pdoc appt next week so I’m going to ask for a klonopin prescription just to get me through right now.

My grandma is going to my mom’s today to help weed to take her mind off things. I’ve gotta go over to print my son’s schedule for remote learning because it’s confusing as hell.

I have therapy tomorrow so I’ll be able to unload all this ********. I talked with my SIL for about three hours yesterday and it was nice. I dont know if I mentioned already but we talked about doing Christmas at my house possibly to take the pressure off my grandma and stop my uncle from ruining it. Because in MY house, you best believe we are eating when I say we are. I’m not waiting around three hours for him to show up. He can heat up his food in the microwave for all I care. I’m also going to piss him off by not making prime rib. I don’t like beef so I don’t see why I should make it. No nasty *** German green beans either. I’m really gonna piss him off lol. And I’m gonna love every second of it