Hello devinegirl: I see this is still just your fourth post here on PC. So I think it is, perhaps, not too late to say welcome to Psych Central.

I'm not a mental health professional. So I can't offer anything with regard to what may be going on with you. For that you may want to seek the services of a psychologist, a mental health therapist or a psychiatrist. In the meantime, you could also take some of the quizzes & tests that are on offer here on PC. There's a link to them in the banner at the top of the page.

I hope you're finding PC to be of benefit.