I will apologize if I'm acting out of sorts. Sometimes I get so lost in my thoughts and stay in bed a lot. I'm too tired to get up or do anything. I'll cry over everything and I will end up yelling about things that I normally wouldn't get upset over. Feeling out of control is still scary to me but I am learning to notice it more and how to take care of it better. My family notices it more and understands when I am manic. If I do anything that I feel horrible for, I will apologize to them. When my friends know I am manic and don't speak to them for a certain amount of days, they are more aware and don't take it personally. Before I used to be out of control, until I found the right medication. I feel so relieved, because before I actually yelled at my niece and I feel horrible about it still. Good thing she accepted my apology because I love my niece more than anything.