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Originally Posted by Crazy Hitch
More specifically your boss!
I don’t want to get into details but I was that manic and psychotic 3 weeks ago that I sent my principal (I’m a teacher) a string of embarrassing and inappropriate emails believing our whole school was under some type of attack.
I spoke to him the next day and explained I wasn’t myself. I don’t recall having apologised though.
And I don’t know if I want to. Not because he doesn’t deserve it but because my psychosis was traumatic and I don’t want to revisit it.
I’m sorry if this doesn’t make sense.
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I went to work wearing a tiara!
No dysphoric mania luckily, but I did lock my boss our of our office and put a DND sign up while blasting Alanis Morrisette and dancing along!
He told me I was manic
and said to take the week off.
I didn't approve of his disapproving assessment of me so had a smoke left my keys on the desk, said fairwell to everyone and that I was done with this BS (best Jon I ever had accompanying stress notwithstanding) and went home.
A week later he emailed and asked if I was ready to come back... By that time I was too high in the sky and ashamed to even consider it.... During the same time I saw my Pdoc and he put me on disability, saying I needed a LONNNG break from work.
That was in 2018 and I am still on a break [emoji33]
Anyway, another week went by and he called to check in on me and I apologised for letting him and the rehab down.... But he was super compassionate (I worked with people who's clients had dual DXs and everyone knew I have BP)
Lucky he was also my mentor and we are still in contact and meet up for coffee or supper sometimes.
Apologizing is hard, even when you mean it, because well for me anyway, the self awareness went out the window and I'm not always entirely sure what I'm apologising for....