I quit over 12 years ago for my kids, and promised myself that someday when they were grown, I'd be able to smoke again if I still wanted to. (Was the only way I could get myself to quit, leaving that opening) Problem is, every day feels like the first day without a cigarette. I've probably chewed 5X my weight in sugar free gum, eaten a giant tower of sugar free hard candy, etc. and I still want a doggone cigarette.
I've never quit more than a year at a time before, bc as soon as temptation arises, I pick it right back up again. But this time I haven't given in, but I sure have wanted to.
I guess I'm just venting. I never had a physical addiction to the cigarettes - I'd forget to smoke all day if I was busy, could put them down for a weekend if I was visiting someone with asthma, etc. and had no withdrawal symptoms - but mentally/emotionally I'm just stuck.