Do what you need to do to stay healthy. An increase can always be lowered when you're feeling stable again for a while.

Excellent point, easily forgotten.

PTSD fires off so many auto responses in the body. It can be awful, but for me it helps me to remember it is just that. A file in my brain on replay and the unfortunate chemical and electric responses that go with it. It feels easier to swallow when I take the show quality away from it and look at it for what it is. It is like lifting the curtain in front of Oz.

Yes, that's what I understand until the damned thing hits and I find myself 2 steps forward / 10 steps back. That said, I'm working on things. If nothing else, breathing well and forcing myself to stand up and do something, anything to change my mind set.

Then I redirect. I imagine myself in a healthier and stronger place. I remind myself of times when I felt safe and what's really true for me.

Yes. That's the goal to meet the objective.

I feared fall last year because I was scared I would relapse. It took a lot of the fun out of the season for me. I know the weather is a hot mess on all fronts at the moment, but I am hopeful there will be aspects of the season you can enjoy despite your previous patterns.

It makes me so angry! I absolutely love Halloween; it used to be a fun, but also a spiritual, time for me. A time to self-reflect and assess. But for the past 8 years it's been sheer hell. Than to, October 28th will be the anniv of 3 years since my precious sister died after a hard fight with cancer. So I'm facing that, too. And covid meaning basically no holiday anything in the winter. Well, there's always the music

Hugs Beth. You're a bright and strong woman and you've got this.

Thank you, sweets. I appreciate that