What I've been trying to do is think of things that I used to really enjoy doing, and do them, and see if there's a spark there. Even if it's just mildly enjoyable, I keep doing it a little at a time. I actually got myself to the point where I was able to read a whole book last week. I didn't get the same level of satisfaction I used to get out of a good book, but I did get satisfaction out of the fact that I managed to focus my attention long enough to read the whole thing, and mildly enjoy it, lol. I know the joy is out there, so I just hang on to every drop of watered-down enjoyment and hope that eventually I'll get a good drink of joy.