Talked to T on Saturday. It was supposed to be a face to face session but she got locked out of her office and called me about 40 minutes before to tell me it would have to be a phone call appointment. I wasn't doing well AT ALL and didn't participate a lot in session. Spoke in monosyllables etc. I was exhausted and just wanted to sleep. She made me promise I wouldn't spend the day alone but I broke that promise and stayed by myself and just went to sleep. Whatever. I kept myself safe.


She reminded me that I didn't want to go to the hospital. Which I agreed that was not what I wanted so she was working on ways to keep me out of the hospital. She was dealing a lot of stuff with me with like anger turned inward and stuff like that. I don't really know what she was going on about. I just wanted to sleep.