The psychiatrist terminated me, saying nothing he prescribed significantly helped me and I can now get those meds from my primary, as he is very busy in his practice and I am not making any progress. I started crying when he terminated me. I wasn’t even that embarrassed about it. I told him I felt frustrated and a little abandoned, but I wished him well and said I understand. It’s actually a good thing if my primary doc can prescribe. It means I am pretty healthy and this doc is not concerned.

The psychologist has not helped in any way with ‘the problem’ for which we need help and why we went to these therapists. I end those sessions feeling like nothing was said.

I’m sad that nothing worked, yet again. I feel frustrated and hopeless. I really wanted this to be a helpful experience, finally. But these were two more doctors who let us down and did nothing.

I pressed both of them for a diagnosis, if any. One said “complicated trauma history” (not even a diagnosis from anything I read...Did he mean c-PTSD?. The other said GAD, but not— that I meet the anxiety profile and he said GAD for billing purposes.

These two doctors were allegedly discussing us with each other, but one thought we weren’t even seeing the other, which we were. And they both gave me different not real diagnoses.

I’m just really sad about the whole situation. I wish I could rewrite my history and not go through this. I’m done with the therapists, yet again. I haven’t been successful at one idea of how to get along and lead a calm life.