I talked to my T on Saturday. I was supposed to see her face to face but that didn't happen because she got locked out of her office!! So she had to call me. But the phone call dropped like six times. Then she had to stop because someone was there to let her into the office and so she called me back. I think I did get my 50 to 60 minutes but it was very chopped up. Really annoying.

I wasn't feeling well at all because I was in crisis. I was not really talking, just speaking in monosyllables. She didn't want me to be by myself so I told her I would go to a friends, but I had no intention of actually doing that. I spent the afternoon sleeping instead. I got through the crisis for the most part. I'm still sort of in crisis but it's less intense.


T was going on about anger toward inward and stuff like that. I don't know. I don't feel angry but I guess that is the point. I wasn't very cooperative which I feel bad about but I did the best I could considering.


Now I'm just trying to hang onto the threads of being okay. shredded threads.