Hi everyone,

I've concluded that I should try to make some changes in the way I relate to this site. I'm not sure what or how I will accomplish that but I think I need more and different sorts of interaction at this point. I've found the guidelines too stifling of my needs to learn how to communicate more effectively and to learn the skills I must learn to survive and prosper. I need to be able to meet and post with people who like me and the ongoing development of my opinions while not having to waste my time and emotions with people who I dislike because of theirs (I guess by one definition that make's me a snert , so be it, I'll build my own composting or solar sanitizing indoor toilet btw).

I've met some nice people here, which isn't so surprising since nice seems mandatory here and conflict resolution learning structure seem absent, conflict being simply a defacto taboo. My anticipatory anxiety seems to have hurt my ability to post here, within the "guidelines", and so get full benefit of thoughtful replies, especially from those who can't or don't spend time in chat. I wish I was a better more organized and less hesitant writer so as to get what I really want to say across better but; I'm all I got at present.

I'm on a time limit and the clock of my funds are running out with my life as I'm done with the normal biosphere killing jobs which are all I see available to me.

I think I need to spend less time here, more purposefully. It's been wonderful and horribly intense getting to know many of you here. Anywho, that's sort of where I'm at now, might change my mind in ten minutes lol but oh well so it goes . I'll be stopping in regularly for a while probably but unless I can figure out how to get more out of my time here I simply must spend less of my diminishing supply here.

~Down