Yes, I feel it and I've tried to talk to T about it. Too long... too much unknown. We have had 2 meetings in person since March; one in July and one in Aug. We are now planning on a meet next week. So 1 time a month so far. These are in a park. Not nearly as good as her office. To be honest, I'm not sure if they are better or worse than video. I think it is good on some level.

I have wondered a lot since probably June on what the point of therapy is going to be if we don't get to meet in person. I'm not sure how much she is aware of my thoughts around quitting. I guess I'm not even sure how serious I am around those thoughts. For a change, I don't really feel like she's "gone", so from that perspective, I guess I still feel connected to her. At the same time, I am not getting what I need to open up and be vulnerable at the same level or same way as I was while we are in person.

I have no answers. Sharing that you are not alone.