{{{{{{{{{{Lady}}}}}}}}}} you are so sweet........I've never, ever done the "girl stuff" you talk about - never even slept over at someone else's house when I was a kid - or went to someone's birthday party.

One thing I can't do, is make a promise that I may not keep.....and I won't lie to you or anyone here. Odds right now are against me, to be honest. It will be a test of my strength this weekend, and lately I have had no energy and no desire to battle with the feelings.

I did send my T an email because I have to travel that way again tomorrow after work to do the paperwork for the one job - god only knows why I'm going, but I did ask that he not call me (which I know he will ignore) anymore, but that I would like to see him again one more time before the weekend.

He's not giving me enough time to shut down, to stop feeling and I know why.....but at the same time, I need to do that. To stop hurting.

Take care of yourself, Lady please. I worry about you as well, you know.

@~~~>~~~~~~~ a rose for a beautiful Lady

Mary Alice