I think it might be anxiety. I personally find the less I think about ... that.. the better, I have not, however let my guard down. I stay in my cave whenever I can, Which is not fun It is quite ironic as some quack IRL once accused me of being a ''hypocondraic'' as I was worried about a legitimate severe physical symptom He did not like me because of my ''anxiety''.... grrrrr. He even lied to me about his ''3 children'' having the same issue. If that had been the case he would have known that issue is not trivial.

Appointment tomorrow. Grrrrrrrrr.