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Originally Posted by fern46
You've been through some really rough times. I'm always amazed at how you've been able to make it through and maintain such a beautiful spirit. I hold hope that some of your losses will reverse themselves with time and an open heart. 
I'm in the same boat with my book. It is 90% complete, but I am not sure I'll ever finish it. I just can't make a call on that yet.
I realize now that my thought that I was giving up the things I love is incorrect. I am just shifting how and when I go about them. I needed the perspective of the wise posters in this thread. I get lost in the details at times and I need to remind myself to also focus on the big picture. Blending the two perspectives brings balance and comfort.
I also realize that dialing back on some of the things that used to take up the majority of my time and energy has made room for me to grow in other areas and discover new paths. That is something to be grateful for. I know it is time to let go of the old me and look forward instead. I've been working on that for two years. I am not sure how long it will take, but I have to keep trying.
Yes, systems are my thing. I know I'll be able to find one that works. It will be a constantly moving target, but I am no stranger to a high rate of change. I love a challenge.  |
You are making a ton of sense. Change, motion, evolution. These are the constants. Us trying to apply the old intensities in the present is mot healthy for us. I cannot reconstruct faces anymore. Too streesful. But I can use my scientific skills to help others w brain diseases better understand them. Use my teaching knowhow to help. No, I cannot give 40 lectures a year now. I can write maybe one book a year. But that is great now.
Homeostasis and balance. Write when I can.maybe none for a week. Run, pray, yoga, read, socially interact, pray,
write some more. Balance. That is my goal, not being a hotshot famous person. That is history. Happily.
You go, fern.