this whole thread is a waste of my time and probably yours. I most definitely do NOT ''belong'' in ''these times''

I guess I never did belong in the world... so that ''avoidant'' dx was maybe accurate. ''not endearing'' and ****ed up

Not saying others with that dx are ''not endearing''..... it was what that ''expert'' told me. And I am definitely ''not endearing'' ''in these times''

And a bear with a missing tooth is NOT to be messed with!

My original question was STUPID.

Some others have WANTED me to feel that I am ''the problem''.... they were verrrrry fyked up individuals (not anyone here) (mostly family. and anyone who has any knowledge of CPTSD would know that ''get over it'' and ''count your blessings, others have it worse'' just adds to our pain

We do not ''choose'' to ''dwell'' in the past. (or in ''dark imaginings ) It FOLLOWS us around .... distractions are only a useful ''coping tool'' some of the time.

And as ''meds'' are not an option I am ****ed