I talk to my pdoc tomorrow and man do I ever need her help. Like clockwork, I wake up at 430am every morning and can't fall back to sleep.

A guy at work is very angry so he didn't show up to work today, no call-no show. I hope he feels better by monday. He really dislaikes the new guys and I hope it doesn't become a problem. Their new, so expectations should be low.

It's non-stop with my revelations of how terrible a person I was, (still am?). Every day I'm reminded and it's really distressing me again. I talked to my therapist and he gave me a good perspective on it, and he's right that mental illness is the root cause, and certain reactions are a sort of survival mechanism.