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Originally Posted by Gasplessy
Hello,
please sorry in advance for any mistake in my english;i'm not a native speaker
Since 2019 i've been posting here about a story with a guy that i developed almost an obsession with (just in my head-never stalking or **** but overthinking in my head after it happened)
Basically in 2017 i met this guy and was interested at first but then i started going out with someone else
Yes i've been what i've been but never had intention to hurt
Anyway it didn't last a lot with the second guy because my life too hace been a caso lately and we "split" already in early 2018
I had to write this because someone could have read this story before, but what i want to tell is about something else (following in the next post)
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I admit that I am confused. But I hope that one day you will be able to forgive yourself. You did not have an intention to hurt someone. Where did you learn that a ''mistake'' is a Crime?? Have you ever had helpful therapy? Maybe your therapist is not very helpful (some therapists mostly just listen.. maybe you need something different?) I'm sorry, I wasn't able to read all of your longer post in this thread.
I don't usually like, or use, cliches, but ''today is a new day''.. I hope that somehow you can FEEL better. Then maybe you can ''be better''.. which is what you desire. I think that you are probably a ''good'' person who is very hard on yourself and confused.
It seems that you are ''young'' - I think ''young'' is anything up to about 50 although many ''experts'' would disagree.... 30 is the new 25 and all that... I know a 90 year old who has made many mistakes but is learning, growing and healing. I hope you find healing some day, however that may be for you.
Sometimes even a tiny change can create other positive changes. Maybe you could read about different types of therapy? Explore spirituality if you have not already done so? (sorry if I'm not being helpful, I'm just tossing out a few ideas)