Like Beth and you, since I was a young child, when my Mum got paranoid, she'd start hitting me and screaming accusations, and I learned to detach like that. My therapist called it voluntary dissociation.

It was helpful in my life, until I left the abusive family. However although it was voluntary, it became involuntary in other areas, and sometimes put me in danger.

If you can, I hope you can access a trauma therapist because you need and deserve support, care, empowerment while you're being abused.