Thanks for explaining more. My sister always thinks she can handle stuff.. i wasnt pestering her either. I don't even know what kind of work she did in the last few years but she makes a big deal about knowing what's best for everyone. She had a govt job. She has the "I know you better than you know yourself" attitude. Anyways, just wanted to say I get how family can't understand or be helpful sometimes. How they listen and talk behind my back, sorry rose that's me my family. I better go to bed and just wanted you to know someone is listening and cares as life has become so lonely. Me too but we keep taking steps forward. I'm going to be ok no worries. Good Night