This is the most I have seen you open up here. You are always so sweet and uplifting and I value your PC friendship. I am sorry you went through bad things as a child. Have you been able to talk to a T or anyone about them? Not saying you have to talk here because sometimes talking about sad things can open old wounds. I always enjoy hearing from you! Keep in mind that lots of people don't feel like they fit in--I've had that feeling a lot during different stages in my life. Hugs.