Sounds like there are a few extreme qualities in your life you are not happy about. Sometimes I feel how you describe how you are feeling and your personality type. For instance , sometimes I feel isolated but that is because I miss the company of others. Most of the time I do enjoy being alone.

When planning, I feel other people focus on small details while I tend to look at the big picture. But when involved in a task, I concentrate on small details and sometimes loose sight of the bigger picture. I don’t think about my future because I already know what I want- but all that seems so far away right now - so I’m waiting for the right opportunities to present themselves and do what I can to take care of myself for now.

Also, I live quickly but prefer life changes to happen slowly and over time. I do suffer from mood disorder-and depression so I do what I need to do for myself and cope with others. I love to eat, I exercise excessively and I love to spend money and fashion things together. Sometimes I do feel the need to spend money in therapy or meds and stuff but sometimes that is exactly what I need.

Not sure 🤔 what you describe is what you think it is it possibly a phase you go through. A professional can help you get there. I’ve found that it is more helpful for me to focus on the small problems and the big problems work themselves out over time. Good luck 😉 it’s kinda hard becoming your best self without help. Glad your here.