I’m on the long way down right now and really scared. Does anyone else feel like they try and grab at these last moments of being up, desperate to not go to the other side? I have got a lot of things done this week. But there are also lots of things not done, and things I know I will never finish and I will forget about them now. My house is full of things like that. All the food I’ve bought will go bad, my debts will need paying, everyone I meet will seem distant or cruel and I just don’t know how to cope with it all over again.