MissUdy, do you have a local professional you can talk with about how things are going right now? I don't have any experience with the psych services of the NHS so I'm not sure if I'm asking a stupid question.

Whether you have someone or not, we're here to listen. What have you done to cope with the downturn in the past? Do you have any friends who don't seem distant or cruel?

Do you have art supplies to create a depiction of where you've been as a reminder? I find having tangible representations of different periods in my life to be helpful.