One thing I've learned through my channeling experience -- that we each have a divine self, a higher self let's call it, that is untainted, unharmed and incredibly strong. It is that inner guiding voice that we can hear deep within. That voice within is our guiding light - our divine light.

We each have the power to rely on our higher self at any time to give us the direction, strength, courage and wisdom that we need in order to move forward, heal and to reach our greatest potential. It is also called an oversoul by some spiritualists.

I have felt very lost lately after shutting down my channeling. I wasn't sure of who I am anymore. I've been a fairly different person for a number of years -- hard to explain. But through all the confusion and upset I experienced, I found my own inner power and realized that it's been there for me this whole time -- reachable from within. Kind of like when Dorothy discovers she always had the power to return home from Oz.

I am going to start doing meditations again to get in touch with my inner power and guide. I need grounding and I need to live back on this planet. I've been talking to the voices I've heard and it's been ungrounding for me in some ways -- enlightening and incredibly inspiring in other ways.

But now I am going to be planted on this earth, not talking to voices anymore and not hearing the voices anymore. I want to take the gems of what I've learned and turn them into important life lessons for me to use going forward... knowledge and wisdom.

I'm turning 50 soon and am ready to start a new chapter, or perhaps even a new book in my new/old life. I now believe that my ability to channel happened for a good reason -- perhaps that reason was to teach me to rely on my own divine self and inner power, and to stop relying on outside influences to help bolster me.

Perhaps.

I am still reflecting on this whole experience and am processing it. Lots to process.