Thanks, and I agree that it's definitely nothing conclusive yet. I've just read a lot of things that say these "negative" symptoms can be one of the first signs, and it makes me worried about what might come if I don't do something soon. I will take your advice of making that list, and I agree; at this point it doesn't really matter what exactly is going on, I just know that it can't go on like this much longer. I'm really hoping I can have ECT as soon as possible and that it will finally give me my life and personality back, because I don't even recognize who I am anymore.