Have you found this helpful? A friend recommended this to me a while ago, said I could talk to her any time about it (and then soon after was not able to log on )

I wonder if I have ''BPD''... I do experience intense pain when close people leave. I am not sure if this is ''normal''... I do not ''move on'' as quickly as normal people seem to. It's like they take a piece of my heart with them.

What is it about journalling you find helpful? Are there different sorts of journalling?

I think maybe I am not very likeable. Not many people IRL are friendly to me (this is not new). They notice my anxiety and.... My husband is ''weird'' like me, he does not like spending time with ''normal'' people. Except for work stuff, technical things where he offers advice etc but does not socialise except when needed. He hasn't had a lot of people criticising him like I have, I suspect its mostly because he doesn't notice critical, mean comments and doesn't look anxious or sensitive. He does fall asleep during social events sometimes though (we have not socialised for some time though. For ''obvious'' reasons which I do not like talking about). I hope this post is not ''too boring''.... I'm feeling disconnected and anxious. He is upstairs sleeping. I can't sleep.

A therapist (long ago) said I was ''disconnected''..