How does someone cope with their depression and thoughts of the past effectively? I feel like I can't do anything. It's pretty difficult to pursue my interests that I have, I'd like to do a lot of things when it comes to creating stuff. Everyday feels like the same, I get dumb and dark thoughts about myself, I often think about the past. I wish I could get over the past, but I don't seem to ever get over it. I was physically abused as a child by a nanny, she was very disturbing and scary to me, I remember wetting myself because I was scared of doing something wrong, I never told my parents about it until few years ago. I also never did good in school, it has affected my self worth a lot. I wasn't diagnosed with autism (high functioning) until I was 18, maybe if that was sorted out earlier it might've helped with school? but I doubt about that, to be honest. After I was done with school, I've felt like a failure ever since and despite my best efforts, my score were useless as I would call it. I wish I could get over these memories, they're in the past, but I have a hard time of letting go for some reason.

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