Thank you. You’re right, it is the uncertainty. I feel like it’s personal even though it’s not. I know for a fact that my T isn’t personally worried about covid as he’s fit. He’s said this numerous times. He keeps saying “X weeks away” in an encouraging way, but then X weeks pass and not another mention. I think he definitely will go back to f2f—sometimes when he speaks of future sessions he speaks as if they’ll be f2f. But at the same time, it’s almost like something is holding him up.

I guess he’s probably comfortable as well, it’s not like he yearns to be in my presence like i yearn to be in his. Plus I think most of his other clients might be in therapy short term and care less about the connection. I worry sometimes that I’m his neediest, most annoying client.

I’m not moaning about his decisions-I realise there’s probably a lot of work in reopening ones practice for face to face sessions...I just wish he could be a bit more reassuring that it will happen at some point? At the same time I don’t know if I can ask for that. I feel like I’m being unreasonable about this, I just can’t switch the feelings off.