I could not relate more. Also finding this intensely painful, to the point where I’ve told my T I can’t do it anymore and want to take a break until she resumes face to face work. I’ve refused to try video sessions so far and been talking on the phone so she wants me to consider this to see if it helps. I also find it really upsetting and keep thinking about all the other things people are doing - like you said - pubs, haircuts etc etc...and it feels like everyone has been able to see, at least at a distance, those that matter to them but with therapy it is different. It is such an important relationship and yet we cannot see them. My T is also very cagey about resuming face to face, i haven’t directly asked because I’m too afraid of the answer, but she literally had not mentioned it. I guess the truth is they just don’t know. It’s horrendous and it feels like it will never end. I think you’re right about finding a way to accept the situation, just no idea how to do that.