Thanks Fuzzy bear. I'm sorry your psychologist terminated you as well. I hope things got better for you eventually.

Yes, I paid for all of my therapy back then. She has an extremely nice side and an occasional moody mean side as well, IMO. She told me she was spending 4 hours per day on me outside of therapy. I never ask her to do that, but that's very nice of her. I remember the last two telehealth video therapy sessions. I couldn't understand some things. Like, started doing therapy right by her bed. And some things makes me uncomfortable talking about it, but she would move her legs up to her chest and ... uggg I don't even want to talk about it. She would lift and move her breast around with her knee. Maybe that's fine, and maybe I'm just not used to those things. I'm not mad at her anymore. She said so many things that just seemed odd. It was a battle in my mind trying to figure out if it was some therapy techniques, or if she kind of liked me. Like she said my girlfriend might be a psychologist. I'm not innocent either. I told her early on that she's one million percent my type. She told me there appears to be something going on between us, which means she felt something as well.

I just want to move on and forget her if she's never going to contact me, but there's so much I haven't said. My 2nd therapist said I have ptsd because of her. I want to email, to at least get proper closure that I so desperately need, but she won't reply. Your advice is good. Just need to be strong and hang in there.