I've run out of options.

I'm not the type of person to reach out for help in a public forum, but I feel like I am starting to slip...

My marriage of 20+ yrs ended in February - she left me. I did not want to separate.

I lost my job in March and, with it, I lost my home.


She still lives in our "forever" home and is "living her best life".


I've never been this alone in my life. I don't have friends, all of them went with her.


None have reached out...

I really don't like my family and am not going to ask them for help.

The majority of my life has been in other countries and I've lost any real connection with my blood family.


My ex-wife's family, who I really LOVED, have abandoned me as well.

So, I have no job, no friends, no family and I am swiftly running out of road.

I have two kids 50% and they're the only reason I am still breathing.

When my job went, my insurance went and so did my counseling.

I know I could continue to pay out of pocket but have been really disappointed with both of the counselors I've tried.

Counseling = A lot of talking, no actions or changes. When it comes to counselors, there is always more talking and, of course, another bill and another session, which includes another bill...

I suffer from depression but stopped taking my antidepressants after 10+ yrs on them.


Why did I stop? I don't need another reason to feel flaccid and weak.

I'm stuck and I have no path forward. I sit in my apartment all day and cry.

My whole vision of my future has been destroyed by my ex-wife's lies and betrayal.


I don't know why I typed this out... All the websites say to ask for help. I guess that is why.

How do you help me when everything I do fails?