Sept 14th all l have done is lie to everyone Psychiatrist, family: sons, sister, mother, father and all my friends. At work l have lied to my boss and workmates. I am a failure a ****ing failure, l am pushing myself and l cant handle it. My head is still broken my life is still in total chaos. All these lies will come home to roost and will destroy me..... I took a handful of tablets yesterday but will tell no one. Sitting here no further forward than when l tried to end my life last December 19.