I been taking my omega 3 fish oil pills again. I already can think clearly and deeply with emotion. Most times I’m all emotion or numb with no ability to think clearly and with deep thought.

Here is something I wrote after 2 days of omega 3 pills and onto the third day:

“3AM contemplation:
What is it to live in a linear, or perhaps non-linear matrix system, that we call reality? Well, we don't know reality for what it really is. Say the Grandfather Paradox. We do away with our grandfather and do some sort of linear time reset or offset. But the problems of the world continue, right? We are no longer born ourselves, but what if we are still born with our soul going to another living child? There is no true natural markup in an offset time table. There may always be that limbo set in the representation of something. Neutral regard. When we become hectic to change our past, our future becomes a little bleaker. The grass is greener on the linear side that was originally set. We weren't meant to go back in time, deviate from extinction, bad choices, or redo things altogether. Once what was set forth comes into fruition, the variable that things could have been different if we had done differently becomes, rather, non-linear. Meaning, there's a set of stories to all of us of what could've, should've, would've, came into being, but that is not for us to know. For us to know becomes irrelevant. The past! It's the past and what the past holds is knowledge. What we fail to forget is that we are already time traveling! What can we do in the future, in this next second or minute or hour, in order to change this linear time table? Become once and forget them all. Read that again. BECOME ONCE.”

“It's 3am guys. Time for a thought:
Perseverance is great, but what about the nihilistic past that is secluded among many of your decisions and hopes? At what point do you dream yourself a documentary-like fable that is supposedly this great, almighty triple-A title. Have you won an award at the Sundance for it? Imagine the plight that Sartre saw decades ago, and Beauvior ate up into her own writings. Existentialistic despise for the status quo, only to become the status quo yourself. Eventually, we all become the status quo, because the status quo was never something we achieved to be or born as, but rather the society fraught with nihilism and the propagation of disease-ridden theories as truth is something we are taught. We will always be taught that. How will we cleanse ourselves?”

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