Human changes. Sometimes for the better sometimes for the worse. Am I a naive when I want a long lasting relationship with people? I don’t like the idea of people come and go in my life. It makes me feel insecure. I need a solid ground that I can stand on. True friends are like diamonds they say, precious and hard to find. At the same time I don’t want people who are stagnant, I want them to keep improving themselves, just like what I’m trying to do with myself. I want their personality to keep growing but I want their heart to stay the same. But this world is a chaos, not everyone can be trusted to love you until the end. It hurt me when they left, the ones that I invested all my feelings on.

2AM thoughts in the middle of anxiety