It’s absolutely mortifying about your father. Have you alerted authorities about sexual abuse? It’s not uncommon for a person to molest children and then just stop. They strike again. I’d worry he’d assault another child. I do understand it’s scary to bring it up to light but it’s scary he might do it to another child. It’s mortifying. I do understand forgiving people but this is the most horrendous vicious crime one can imagine. Does your mother know?