Things are chaotic (old member, new account here). I feel like a failure because of substance abuse issues. It's a horrible cycle of using->worse symptoms->more using to self medicate->etc. I just spent two weeks in a program where we were supposed to learn how to cope without drugs. All I learned is that I have a lot of past trauma and abandonment issues that I need to work on (and possibly ADHD? That was brought up as a possibility). I don't think they brought up coping skills once, but I guess I haven't been paying attention too well. I have a new extra-dimensional hallucination I call Leo following me. I drew him.
I guess I'm just learning too much right now. I'm thinking of moving out of the country. I live pretty close to the Canadian border, but I want to move farther away than just across the border.