We boxed it out a few times in the house. Luckily the kids were asleep and did not wake up. Still, it was awful fight and I'm truly resenting him for doing what he does to me.

I can't even remember how it started, but lately he has been possessive and jealous over everything. I told him my friend was having an affair on her husband a couple days ago and ever since he has been up my *** an accusing me of dumb %#@&#!. He constantly calls me a liar and has even accused me of stealing money from him. I've never lied to him or stolen money from his wallet....he's trippen.

He's a little ***** when it comes to fighting. When I was younger I was scared of him, when I was pregnant I tolerated him and took his blows to my legs and arms, but now....I fight back. He always has to hit me when I have my back turned or stuck in a corner....deep down I want to hurt him like he has hurt me. He took some hard blows to the face last night, but I have bruises around my neck. His favorite thing to do is to pin me on the wall with his hands around my neck.

When I get this sort of cold distant attitude about this situation I'll tell people. It must be awkward to them because they never say anything about it. Either they think I deserve it, or they don't know what to say. As far as telling people who are close to me in life....what's new. They are sick of hearing the same old %#@&#!. They've told me to leave him a million times.

His drinking has went from really bad to majorly worse. He used to drink 2 days then go a day sometimes 2 and drink again. These were twelve packs. Now he drinks every damn day. He buys 24 packs every other day and 12 packs on the other. He promised that once he quite his supervisor job he'd quit drinking....well it got worse instead. He used to be a nice drunk, now he's a *** hole of a drunk.

Anyway, same old %#@&#! just a different day. I want him out of my house now, but several things are holding me back. One is having the gas money and child care while I take my finals this week. If I miss those finals I'll fail all my courses I worked hard on for the last four months.



I want a divorce.