I have group therapy tomorrow afternoon. I don't feel right about that group. I had a phone call from my T lastnight and she talked about some issues I mentioned in a letter I wrote to her. Perhaps this fear of social rejection is contributing to my fears of interviews. They are moments of social jusdgement. I was bullied tremendously in my youth and it seems that I don't know how to present myself to others without being guarded and suspicious all the time. I guess I am applying that same fear to interviews. My guard is always up and I am too cautious about what I say to others. In a way, I am creating my own problems, I guess. The self-fulfilling prophecy maybe?

Before an interview, I prepare myself for rejection and that is probably what is ruining my communications. How do I change this?