Turn the negatives into positive thinking maybe? Instead of going into the preparation time reminding yourself to be guarded and careful, make a list of all your positives, your abilities, your knowledge.....read through that list often....repeat them to yourself out loud....practice in the mirror saying these positives that you have worked so hard for in school to gain...not to mention life experience too
It's a small step...it will feel awkward and uncomfortable, but keep at it....I know from experience what repeating positives can do for a soul....I'm living proof that it works!
((((((((((((((((((((((( Ingridave ))))))))))))))))))))))))))) Do what you have to do for now to survive...and in the meantime, continue working on those positives!

sabby