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Sep 19, 2020, 11:51 PM
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Member Since: Apr 2014
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Originally Posted by MisterPaul
I’ve been very successful lately. I have a great job opportunity ahead, got myself my dream car, and lost lots of weight.
People around me started putting more pressure on me because of that, throwing around phrases like „you must get yourself a girlfriend now; you have everything, it’s time!”… what they don’t know is that the reason of my successful path is a diagnosis of NPD I received two months ago.
Since so I studied hard and, whether the diagnosis is accurate or not, it helped me understand how my mind works, what holds me back, and what kind of fuel I need. My relationships in the past were very shallow. I never had a long term partner and when it comes to any kind of change in this field, I’d say I am nowhere near ready. My friends’ reactions helped me realize how little they know about me - scratch that. They don’t know me at all. They have no idea what I’m dealing with and I think they see me as a victim with some mysterious problem. I will not put up with it. I think I should discard them all. Cut every single one of them out of my life and put my money on meeting new people whenever I’m ready. Does it sound like a way to go or is it too much? I know I’m ready to do it if it’s necessary, not sure if it is though.
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Are you continuing with the professional who diagnosed you? It's great that you are coming to understand yourself so that you can be professionally successful. If you want deeper friendships, it seems to me you need to continue to work with a therapist to understand your needs in a relationship, your tendency to keep things superficial, and how, with your unique situation (NPD diagnosis) you can grow healthy, fulfilling relationships.
Are you familiar with the phrase narcissistic discard? I would be concerned about this idea of discarding friends, for you in particular, because it is a symptom of the disorder. I really think the best thing would be to explore this with a professional who knows your unique situation. Someone without NPD, I would say that these people sound like acquaintances and not friends. But due to your diagnosis and the implications, I cannot urge you enough to discuss this with your therapist or psychiatrist.
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Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder
Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia.
Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien
Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less...
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