So, as I have said, I am beginning the process of becoming Catholic. So excited! I get confirmed at Easter, if that is God's will. Yay! Super deee-duper stokified!

I have also said that I believe I have been undergoing a.vast spiritual transformation since first becoming manic and psychotic in 2005. One painful observation many of us with bipolar disorder and schizophreniaish illnesses have is that our sometimes distressing words and conduct harm those who love us. One outcome of this is the loss of those sources of love as they seek protection from our chaos and madness. Very sad for all.

Further, when we with these disorders are down-cycled or experiencing negative symptoms, the parts of the brain in which the human experience of love reside malfunction, often, catastrophically. When this happens, we are deprived of the wondrous consolation repeatedly promised by God of his everlasting love, which he so generously created in and for us. Also, very, very difficult and sad.

I personally today believe that God is currently displeased with this state of affairs. Based on some fairly staggering spiritual experiences I have had since 2005, I also believe he feels very strongly the time to act on al"l this this is now.

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