so i need to pick out a clinic & internal medicine doctor/specialist to go to. and yeah...
i don't know what to do and am really struggling in figuring it out. almost seems like neither option is a 'good one', so to speak.

option 1) would go to 'clinic D', which is the clinic (healthcare system) i am going to & using for my brain injury treatment.
three positives about this clinic system & three negatives

option 2) would go to 'clinic E', which is one i really haven't been to. i had a one-time referral appt there a couple months ago, and that's been almost it for appts at this particular clinic (healthcare system).
four positives about this clinic system & four negatives

there are some [un-mentionable] things that can become 'visible' to doctors if they run certain blood tests or organ tests or things like that, even if you don't mention it or bring it up. and the problem is, ONCE they become aware of it, they put it in your electronic file which goes into the system & database and becomes available for almost anyone to see. and that's not just a short term thing -> it's like forever, like a damn tatoo or scar! basically like the phrase, what's said can't be un-said or un-heard!!!
and if you didn't already have anxiety, you certainly would after that!
there just are certain things that people have that they aren't ready to share or talk about, which could be physical things too -> so it's not that you're hiding things or are unwilling to fix them, it ain't that at all.

i just don't know what to do or which to choose. it's turning into a massive decision.....
and there is a very high potential that if something 'unwanted' comes up (like something i am 'unable' to talk about), that i not only deny it like h**l but also causes so much anxiety that i don't go back to that doctor again! which would then have almost disastrous impacts going forward

so what would you do , which would you choose , got any suggestions????