After some research I don't think it is disassociation, the only symptom I share is being able to turn off my emotions and even that is different. Many people report feeling as if they are outside of themselves when they turned off their emotions and I definitely don't feel like that. I feel like I flip a switch and just become apathetic to everything but I am still very much in myself and aware of what is going on. Again, thank you all and if that is what someone's disassociation feels like, please let me know.