Hi, Deilla. I just found your thread. I haven't visited Depression in a while. I do use what I call visualization for many purposes. I feel so sad when you talk about the way your family treats you. You are such a lovely & good person, the only thing that makes sense to me is that they are bitter & jealous. And maybe your consistent kindness makes them feel guilty & they resent you for that. You know, like you "kill them with kindness", though it's unintentional. Also, we inherit our so-called family members. A real family supports & loves you. I think we're better off creating our own family with people we like & who like us. We can help them & they can help us. The other kind of family only pushes us down & crushes our joy. Hugs & much love to you, dear wonderful friend!!