I see. I hope you are able to find an outlet for change that can accommodate your health needs.

I spent a lot of time and energy pushing against the darkness in this world and it led me to madness. I take a much different approach now. I try not to judge it as it is what I need in order to be stable. I also try not to judge others.

I believe my creator offered free will for a reason and I am using mine to choose safety for myself and my family. I'm just not in a position to avenge the greater evils at this point and that's ok. I am offering service in other ways that do not destabilize me. It has been difficult to accept that, but the lessons I have picked up in humility and unconditional love have been worth the effort.

There is a very fine line for those of us with these sorts of disorders to walk here. We are deeply connected spiritually and I believe there is more to it than a simple malfunction of the brain. It is very difficult to control though. Mine left me feeling more like a puppet than a spiritual warrior.

I only hope you'll keep us posted on your endeavors so that we can assist in the event things get a little out of hand. I think your heart is in a beautiful place and I wish you well with this. I also care for your well-being and hope you can find a way to make change while staying balanced. Allowing our spiritual aspect to dominate our hearts and minds is a slippery slope. Be sure to use your physical, emotional and mental aspects each day in more neutral ways to ground.