Maybe I'm just making myself this way, since I know the symptoms now. I don't know.

But the whole weekend, I didn't sleep much...and I'm not really tired. That is NOT me!! I am an OVER-sleeper. But this morning, woke up at 5 AM, got ready for work, not tired at all.

Got in a really pissy mood at my husband yesterday. He didn't answer a simple question and I flipped out and left the room.

But...I was fine, normal, all day earlier yesterday with my daughter. Sunday is my favorite day because I get to spend all day with her, alone - hubby is at work. I took her to the park, we had a little picnic, fed some birds, took the dog for a walk. It was the greatest day. I was fine. Maybe even happy.

Today just kinda numb. Not depressed really, but a little anxious about work. I have been slacking off and there is a huge project I need to finish but I just can't sit down and DO it!! My thoughts keep wandering, and I end up online. Need to stop this.

It's like I'm leading a double life. There's the side of me that is the loving mother and wife and hard-working employee...then there is the side of me that slacks off at work all day and does crazy stupid things when I'm alone. Stuff that could really ruin my life. But I still do it.