I have been reluctant to talk about the past which caused my ptsd. I don’t know if it means I have moved past it or am repressing it. This past weekend I did throw ok a lot of stuff from my last job.

I think my problem is that I was so comfortable with my old T even though she had flaws that I have unreal expectations for this one. I wish I could go back but I know that isn’t possible. I just have to look forward whatever that actually looks like. I just have to learn to open up again. It is so hard.